The Next Morning: Glad to at Least be Awake

As I woke up, I found the cat sleeping beside my bed on the floor. It was comforting to have company in the morning, especially after having horrifying nightmares….
The nightmare I remember most was so vivid; I swore it was real. In this bad dream, I was at home, to my surprise. I was with my best friends, Libby, Justin, Dani, and Tara. We were sitting in my room, and we were doing normal stuff that we usually did at my house. We were watching MXC, cracking up, eating popcorn and drinking hot cocoa because it was always too cold in my room. But then something weird happened. Justin was looking at me in a way he never had before. I got this funny feeling when he did, and in the worst way. I felt like he was undressing me with his eyes, and it was so confusing. Justin was always like a brother to me.
I looked away as if I did not notice, and I continued to watch the show. I got up to go to the bathroom, and I motioned for the girls to come with me. In the bathroom, I told them about my suspicions about Justin. Tara thought I was crazy; I think it is because she likes him, and any information that would contradict Justin liking someone else is unacceptable. Libby believed me though, and she said she would look out for me and watch for signs from him. Dani agreed. When we got back into the room, Justin looked annoyed. I prayed he didn’t hear us talking about him in the bathroom. Even though he was grossing me out, he was a good friend.
I brushed off his peculiar attitude and ate my snacks while watching TV. I drank my hot cocoa, and when I did, Justin was staring at me. This time I couldn’t ignore it, and I said to him in a joking matter, “Sup, creeper?” In a condescending way he responded, “Nothing, dumbass.” I started to feel physically weird. Everyone was laughing, but it sounded as if I was under water, and I could hear only their echoes. No one noticed the way I was feeling, but I couldn’t say a word. The girls left because Libby’s mom was there to pick them up, and Justin stayed. I tried to say something, but I could not. Justin looked at me, and started to undress me. I can’t bring myself to say the rest, but you get the idea. I felt so helpless…Even more helpless than I am in this unknown world I am in.